Friday, April 14, 2017

CONTROL

I feel sad, again. And this seems to be a recurring emotion that I've been feeling for awhile now.

I don't have a concrete reason why I feel this way, but I do. Life has been going through the motions everyday until the day is over, with sadness being a constant at the door.

I feel inadequate.
I feel unsatisfied.
I feel shortchanged.
I feel alone.

There are happy times, of course, but those happy moments are oft fleeting and momentarily. I feel like I'm being fed these happy times just enough to keep me going through the misery.

Does anyone ever truly cares? I feel like people only care out of obligation. Obligation because they are related to you. Obligation because they spend too much time with you.

People don't care. They just don't.

I want to die.