6 Memorable Moments

So here i am reminiscing bout 2009 before i head out to party the night away and countdown to 2010! This year was...an emotional roller coaster. I got my heart broken, got my heart fixed (sort of i guess), lost a friend, made a best friend, and realised true friends stay true to you no matter what :)

1. Breaking up.
Never really talked bout this, but this relationship has made me realised how heartbroken and vulnerable i can get. He was the one i loved with the whole of my heart. We've had so many dreams together. He got closest to my heart, but it didn't work out in the end. Initiating to break my own heart was the hardest thing to do, but i survived. Guess time showed that we didn't fit. Whatever it was, i didn't regret a thing at all. I hope that someday we'd be friends, and a part of me will always love him indefinitely, with or without the dreams.

2. Falling out.
I almost rarely fall out with friends just because i don't bother to do so. Not a fan of all the confrontation and shouting and endless times of standing up for your points and trying to vindicate yourself. It's like a snowballing effect, once you start the fire its only going to escalate and everything will be burnt to ashes eventually. What i normally do is just...let it slide. Falling out made me realise how spiteful a person can get, and how far their character can plummet to.

3. Made friends.
Because of this falling out incident, i became close friends with jolene, wendy, naq, emerle and shaun. These people prove to be the kind of friends who will rise above anything else in turbulent times and be there for you no matter what. Esp jolene, who turns out to be one of my best friends! We've shared laughter, tears, stress (promos lah promos), heartaches and heart races together. Our friendship is by far the luckiest i have, and i love her alot :)

4. Heart-to-heart talks.
This year was filled with them, and the most memorable was the one i had with abel and preston at the playground @ like...3am i think? We just finished supper and were chilling when we started to talk. We poured out out hearts and i realised that these 2 guys have been the awesome-est friends ever because they've been there when i've had boy drama, helped to vet my crush, and be like worried ducklings when i freaked out over my phone bills + crazy mom, and be the first ones to celebrate my birthday with me under my block (they planned the whole thing by themselves, guys leh!! How thoughtful!!) Even though they can leave me sleeping on the sofa after a football match and play dota till daybreak at abel's, they are still the sweetest guy friends i have.

5. Stayed in contact with girlfriends.
These bunch of girlies are the best i have, and i am probably a nun in my past life to have such luck to be close friends with every single one of them. We've been through so much, and through the fall outs and made ups we've gone through, it just proves that our friendship is strong and we can overcome almost everything together. I keep every single letter that i received from these girls (esp the one peipei wrote when i got my heart broken for the very first time in 2008), and i am truly touched at how wonderful and amazing these girls are :) Peiyun, Minhui, Weixin, Geraldine, Brenda <33333333333333333333333

6. BFF
Alamak this one not really considered memorable since he was there like 24/7 since primary school and have been my support though every big event in my life that broke me down and fixed me up. He gives the best advice and am the bestest guy friend anyone can get. My deepest darkest (ok not really dark lah) secrets are with him, and i know i can trust him with my life. :)

Okay i wanted to come up with 10 memorable moments but i realised that i can only come up with 6. Haha other moments were memorable too, but nothing life-changing and worth mentioning. 2009 was good to me, and through the roller coaster ride i have embarked on, i have learnt many many life lessons and made many friends i know that i will keep safe and warm inside my heart through life.

2010, BRING IT ON BABY. \M/

I might have just stolen this scene from a song

Studying at airport with jojo from 9pm to 8am for consecutively 2 days. Is just poor thing or what you tell me!! This is what happens when you play your holidays away and you're left with 2 weeks to complete 4 weeks' worth of homework. Haha ok stop stop cannot complain anymore like one old woman like that.

Studying at airport overnight is damn shiok, cause like damn peaceful and no rude people staring at you cause you occupy seats for studying. Plus you get to see cute ang mohs waiting for their flights!! Hehehe plus pointzz. And airport laksa is just cannot eat. 3.60 one bowl and NO PRAWNS. Walau knn damn ex ok i see my small bowl of stale soup and measly amt of tao gay and 3 pieces of fish cake with no prawns i just damn sian. But then in the morning 8am want to eat laksa so no choice must compromise >:(

Hahaha huixian is just damn cute why he so cute!!!

Overdued photos from class chalet + shaunny's birthday celebration. 2nd last photo is just epic ok look at wenyong's face. Hahaha very ugly one. And last photo i think zx look quite handsome eh! Huixian also look very yang guang!!

P.S/ I told jojo that i very scared to use internet cause i will tend to deviate from the important websites (e.g. tpjc.net) and enter the vortex of other interesting websites (e.g. fb blogs you get the drift)

P.P.S/ I just wasted 2 hours surfing useless websites. Guess i made my point.

I can live without you but without you i'll be miserable at best

† Josephian † says (3:49 PM):
*munch munch*
Meishan says (3:49 PM):
om nom nom
† Josephian † says (3:49 PM):
wa huh?
HAHA
OM NOM NOM
YOU KNOW ALSO OMG
Meishan says (3:49 PM):
yeah man
† Josephian † says (3:49 PM):
YOU HIP

HAHAHAHAHA TELL ME WHY MY BFF SO CUTE!

These are the nights

Night's out with my babies at bedok ytd. Haha ok lah not really night's out, main motive is just to meet weiwei to get prezzies she got from bangkok. Hehe :D Ate at bedok inter, then proceeded to princess mac to slack and talk.
Feels goodz to catch up with my babies after so long. No one's really changes, everyone's pretty much the same. Minhui was the joker of the night man, stuff bout her erjie scolding indian man. Haha like epic only, can imagine?? She damn fierce only really. Last pic donno why don't have weiwei, can crop her in?

And hor these pics just not taken that night lah. Last night's one all still inside weiwei's cam. Hahaha is last year's one, when we were partying our asses away before o's results. Whaaaa i miss those days man. Just no need worry bout studies!! >:(

I just best friend plz, after bedok took 17 to tpjc and walk to mason's hse the bus stop just to pass him stuff i bought frm msia. Tell me good friend not! He somemore tell me he want to watch sg idol results ask me just hurry come. Good friend only ah haha. Then when i msg him ask him who win he reply me "That malay guy. Sian." Hahaha just very funny only right his reply.

Bff's being an awesomely nice friend. Just spam like 6 songs my making april ask me accept and listen while he go eat lunch. Good one lor! But i good friend also ok so i accept all :D Not bad only their songs, can listen till cry kind cause lyrics just very romantic!

Jojo's coming over to bathe and eat later, then we just go airport tgt and study through the night! My dad very good to her ok she come only he cook laksa. I at home only he ask me eat grass. Haha okok joking only no grass lah. Pray hard studying session will be productive man if not i will just die cause time is not enough to finish hw alr. I just play play play the whole hols away man i feel damn guilty.

Countdown @ downtown this year, time to meet new girlies and boyzz! Everyone must just make it ok so will be very fun when we countdown and dance and party the night awayzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, ok? :D

† Josephian † says (3:35 PM):
they suck lollipops only
they dont suck as a band

<<<<>>>>:(

AND BFF LISTENS TO MAYDAY PARADE YAY BABY \M/

It's me and you held close together

Went home alone after work today because i needed some alone time. I love long bus rides, you just sit there and stare out of the window while a million thoughts flash through your mind and you have music blasting into your ears. The music sorts of overpowers those racing thoughts and force you to concentrate on everything else other than those thoughts. Makes you feel more at peace with the world for a moment. Well, at least it does that to me lah so yeah.

I like sweet loving couples. They sort of makes you go "awwww..." and warm and fuzzy all at once. I remember i once saw this malay couple at airport mac. They were singing and dancing for each other at the songs that were playing on the radio! Like, how ah, can imagine? Like they sitting opposite of each other and then have crazy hand movements and loud singing voices and crackling laughter. Sounds like public nuisance hor but no!! To me is just romantic lor. Like just heck the people surrounding you because you've got the most wonderful being right in front of you. Quixotic moment only!!

Video called ger just now. Nice only, she like forever prepared for webcam one leh. Haha i not lor, if you see be before i bathe and after i bathe, is just different one!! Hp is the bestest guy friend anyone can ask for man seriously. He's like THE most awesome friend ever \m/ luv you loadzz kay!

When you're a thousand miles away

Enlarge enlarge!! Jojo just emailed me from HK!!!! Damn sweet can she i was practically screaming at the computer like a mad bitch when i saw her email. Whoooohoooo~
Wha miss her like crazy okay you just cannot imagine how much i miss this girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going out for movie with ting yu later at 940. Walau next day have to work and meet bren at 640!!!! How to have enough sleep you tell me!!!! :( :( :(

Just chui ttm. JOLENE JUST HURRY COME BACK OK!!! WO HEN XIANG NI!!!

Balling today was awesome like crazy. Haven't seen the girls in a long time. Played laughed went crazy and had some girl bonding time over lunch. Everyone pretty much is still the same as i remembered them! Never will find a team like mine ok we went through shit and tears and laughter and craziness altogether. From playing netball under the rain to almost getting into a fight with *ahem* C sec school to crying over lost matches to eating 2 cups of maggie mee during our 10min break to lots of heart to heart talks. My girls are the bestest! \m/

Whoaaa nostalgia only me. Ok ok needa zhng myself alr if not confirm late!
NEED TO MEET BFF FOR DINNER. REMEMBER OK MEISHAN.

Fled the scene of the crime to avoid arrest

Msia trip was the bomb!!!!!!!! Saw (and smelt) goats, cows, crocodiles and chickens!! And walau xida's family just like own super big oil palm field!!! Rich one leh people, haha. But cannot sit car with him only and his sister driving. Abit unstable one him, say stuff i cannot really comprehend. But his pronounciation is the best though, is will laugh uncontrolably one.

*akon's sexy chick playing on air*
Me: Wha this song very nice, i like
X: I will become malaysia's next air-con
Me: Huh wth what thing air-con??!!

Then like 3 seconds later i realise he was trying to say that he will be malaysia's next akon. He just pronounce akon as air con. Hahaha agree that is funny leh.

Climbed mount ophir. Haha say until like really climb like this, no lah, just climb some flights of stairs only. Trekked the treacherous waters of the waterfalls and the boys were like spidermen ok jump here jump there from rock to rock. Val and me just very intimidated by the unknown depths of the water and slowly navigate through the dangerous waters. And val fell down into the waters and got wet!! Poor thing one. Then yx just damn sweet boyfriend ok take out his shirt let her change cause scared she flu. Then he just walk around topless one. Loving not them! I just jealous why alex nv treat me so well. Hehe >:)

Ate nice food! Like really nice, sg no fight kinda nice. Plus is cheap one the food!! Yx's stomach like bottomless pit one. He eat his rice + val's rice + my rice and at least half of the table's food and ramly burger. Tell me where all the food go!! Just scary only his appetite.

Watched avatar there!!! The movie is just damn nice!!!!! Oh oh and shopping at msia is shiok also. Cause buy thing just no need to contemplate whether will overspend or not. But everlast shoe just don't have my size i very sian. Very nice one you know. Both shoes also don't have my size!!!! Arghhhzzxzx sian max.

Texted bff from msia! Walau text him that time is damn excited one, then don't know why he never reply. End up last day xida ask me if i got put +65 in front of his number. I was like huh need to put 65 one meh. Haha no wonder he nv receive my text lah! No receive = no reply = sad me.

Came back sg then realise the mosquitoes at msia are vicious lil creatures. Really one leh choose those places to bite is just damn difficult to scratch. Like behind your knees and on your toes. Scheming one those insects!! Just want to torture you :(

And unpacking is a bitch chore haha i told that to ting yu. Just sian half when need to unpack stuff!!!! Anything related to packing is just not my forte.

Ok time to do homework already!! Tmr still need meet ah lee for balling and ting yu at night. Just damn sian to do homework one. :( :( :(

My heart beats faster when I'm with you

Went out on an impromptu dinner date with jojo and shaun. Went to walk around T1 and i realise shaun is a very impatient person. Cannot wait for me to try on shorts one leh somemore try to intimidate jojo to abandon me when i inside dressing room :(

Went to hunt for xmas hats but our efforts were futile. Talked and laughed and shaun is officially the joker of the day! Full of crap can. Haha, sent them off at the interchange <<>

And then and then here comes the scary part.

I walking home then got this guy staring at me. Ok nvm then as i waiting for lift i just saw this eyeball from behind the wall thing staring at me. Then i realise its that guy who was staring at me cause he bald then the scary eyeball guy also bald. Then when move closer to see who is it then the person just run! I damn intimidated and my heart rate just went up damn fast then when lift open and i ran in and press 11 and press another button for the door to hurry close!! Then the door nv close!!!!! Then i realise is cause i press door open!! Walau then just jam the door close button like crazy cause i scared the guy will run into the lift and kill me!!! Can imagine my heart rate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wha i type out this paragraph also damn scared can cause must like relive the experience and all. Can imagine??? Scary scary.

Meishan says:
i go msia what you want i buy back stuff for all of you
[c=#050AA9][i][b]; IRONICALLY[/b][/i][/c] [b]13th november 2024 20:00[/b] says:
no need lah
i going taiwan
anything to buy?
Meishan says:
haha walau my overseas in comparison with yours is just insignificant

Nevermind lah another chop on my passport is still shiok! Hope no awkward moments btwn me and x and then y's gf will be a cool girl so can click better! >:)

The summer was full of mistakes

Some people just like to victimize themselves alot. Like cannot just accept the fact and move on must just dish dirt behind other people's back one. To comfort yourself? Abit pathetic one leh like after everything is done and done must just try to vindicate your actions and role in this whole thing. Pointless one leh this kind of thing. Why you just fail to see this point huh?? Please try to digest this point ok, and while you are at it, grow up.

We'll be a dream

Class chalet was awesome. Food was mediocore la but what to expect, chalet food is just standard everywhere one. Company was awesome though!! Stone taught us new game leh quite fun. Cause weiwei and me team and then just own everyone. Smartgalzz :D

Sent weiwei home. Wha zx and me just good friends ok that girl say take lift scary then we just initiate to pei her take lift. Somemore must wait for her to open door!! Tell me good friends annot. And we were STARSTRUCKKKKKED! Like literally leh walking that time just suddenly inotice got many many stars!!! Whole night sky like just spam with stars. And we saw shooting stars tooooo!!! Wished upon 2 shooting stars. Just keep fingers twisted hope will come true

Went to the beach and enjoyed sea breeze from 12ish till like what 5ish? DAMN SHIOK ONE. Sea breeze is cold like what but then is really shiok. But then will smell like seaweed and hair oily and body niam niam la. But then breeze is best so worth it. Wenyong is not normal when he tired. Whole night just buey tahan him. Haha.

Walked to macs and ate breakfast. Then wait till 6 before we share cab home. I didn't know midnight charge was 50%!!! Jialat leh chenrenzhiwei and scam more money during ungodly hours when most people just urgent to go home!

And lastly shauny ah hope you like the present!!! FFL okay >:)\

Jojo baby going hong kong soon :( :( :(

Meishan says:
joel ang?
Jo says:
erm..i dunno the surname.
the one u st-st-st---stuttered when he talked to u
Meishan says:
HAHAHA walau just dont mention my embarrassing encounter with him plz
Jo says:
hahas..
nvm..cute mah..
Meishan says:
haha walau think bout it i really just want to smack myself in the face man
i was like "huh mrs tay?? she is...she..she she (x1000 until joel sian alr) having err err ree..re..re what ah.. OH! relieve class!"
MOST STUPID CONVERSATION LEH

Hahaha so there you have it the most stupid conversation i can ever have with a guy i don't know. NICE

I'm ready to go, I think you already know

Dslr-taken photo leh. Haha songhan's dslr just very nice. But very expensive also. I think must wait quite long before i got enough kaching to buy a baby like that!

Went to ECP to eat with mason samuel songhan. We just don't really know how to get there, then just anyhow get down the bus and stalk this one couple. Think the gf scared cause she just walk very fast with the bf. Haha if me i also scared one.

Walked damn long before we reached the place. Ate nice food. The stingray and lala just damn nice. Esp the lala, whaaa. But then ex one 10bucks one small plate. :( Chicken wings also very nice. Starstrucked leh we, saw xuzhenrong and quanyifeng and her daughter you know. We just stare to see if its really them but then must act like you not really staring. Can imagine? Haha.

Sat at the waterbreaker/break thing and enjoyed sea breeze after dinner. Talked. New year isn't a really nice day :( Got cockroach run around. Got nice Switzerland chocolate to eat. Nice Italian toast biscuit thing to eat.

Then we just lazy to walk back so we all share cab home. Just in time to watch xue jing chu geng 2nd last episode for <30mins.>

Preston say tonight eat supper with abel. Can we just order macs and slack at abel's house not? I abit lazy to go out far and eat supper one. Plus order mac got seaweed fries leh. :D

Take me for a ride and kiss me one more time

Cause even if we fall we'll be okay

Grab hold of your heart

WHY DECIDE TO HAVE CONSTRUCTION WORKS GOING ON WHEN I AM AT HOME. WHY WHY WHY JUST WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

I slept at 330am last night. Then i predicted that i'll wake up at 330pm, haha cause sleep 12 hours ma. Then end up i just wake up at 10ish. WHY?!?!?!?!?! Because my neighbour staying below us decides to have construction works going on early in the damn morning. Walau really, then i just half awake and curse that family. Then now when i am fully awake (still no 12 hours sleep), sitting on the chair in front of laptop, the construction works still going on you know. Is like really damn noisy cause i sit the chair also can feel the vibration from below. Really irritating one. Can imagine? Wha damn sian. Jojo why you got band today, why why whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Just not diplomatic enough to not have construction works leh. SIAN

He's got me 10 feet off the ground

Just realised that spongbob squarepants in chinese is 海绵宝宝。Wondering what patrick the starfish is. 星鱼？Hahahaha damn ugly chinese. Can explain to me why after a lvl chinese exam sch reopen still must go for chinese lesson? Like just pointless one leh. Go there do what, anticipate results?

WHAAAAAAA this lil' girl from the children's camp just texted me "You married alrd?"
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
I just look married meh. Who gets married at 17 anw. Unless they are like Jane and Kevin from 27 Dresses. Or Margaret and Andrew from The Proposal. Or Rose and Jack from Titanic :(

Too. much. romance. movies.

Volunteering for the children's camp was a gratifying, humbling and definitely memorable experience. At the end of the day, the rewarding feeling you gain from each of the lil' angels' smiles, the stuff they say to you, the laughter and the innocence that radiate from their tiny souls, is something that will touch your heart deep from within. Heart as pure as gold, every single one of them. :')

But, all is without a few memorable experiences, no? There were fighting cases going on, pretty much reminds me of how my brother and i used to fight when we were younger. We'd practise wrestling moves on each other or pretend to shua3 zui4 quan2. Haha.

So this was an interesting conversation between me and the boy who just beat up another boy.

Me: You keep fighting with other people, why dont want to learn martial arts huh!
Emerle: *whispers* People thai boxing one.
Me: *stun*
Boy: Ya la!! I 5th place one ok!!

Hahaha, amusing right. Like the answer wasn't something i would expect at all.
Thai boxing leh, damn fierce one. No wonder can beat up other people so professionally.

Received drawings from 2 kids from my group. They were super duper adorable. They drew me a picture of me and my (imaginary) baby. My baby is named either britney or laila. Can't decide on one because they gave me 2 names but there was only one baby. So thoughtful right, save me the trouble of naming my baby. Haha.

Leg's sore to the bone since the zoo trip, since we trekked almost the whole of the zoo. Seriously back-breaking one leh the distance. Or maybe its a sign of old age. Nevermind, shall live in denial and go with the first one. Plus today's ai sui mai mia's choice of a smaller size shoe did absolutely no aid for my already aching feet.

Damn sian, how that the camp is over, need to switch on the studying mode already. Can't wait for the getaway though, i need some time off to chill, pronto. Hope it wouldn't be too awkward though. *cross fingers*

Wha like long only the post. At least i got things off my chest. :)

Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?

I am a Devil/Angel says (10:33 PM):
hey
i wan ask u sth
I am a Devil/Angel says (10:34 PM):
how u get m.c de

Wha online only ask me this. Like i always go take mc like this leh. No lor. :(

Haha as if only me.

Down with cough + flu. Sneezing the whole day damn ugly one leh. Cried while watching hua mulan. Damn nice can the show. Really damn nice. Then saw this guy accompany the mama/aunt watch the movie. I see already immediately whisper to wendy : "This kind must lock up inside the museum. Cause extinct already this kinda boy. "

Hahaha just laugh at my own comment only.

And i wanted to print something. But then when i reach desktop i just press shut down. Then i scream wtf at myself. Man i've got issues :(

FATTY

I am on a mission. A very important one indeed. The importance level is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo high that the grey mass inside your skull would never be able to comprehend. Succeeding in this mission is equivalent to achieving god-like status, and hence making everything impeccable. Sounds wonderful right??

And that mission is to..............




















Lose weight.

Man am i shallow. Haha.

I like fat leh. I really damn depressed. My brother ask me stand on weighing machine. Then it states 47.8kg or something. Then he say "Ok la your weight. Round up 48 only ma!"
Wha my face just instantly sian half. Then he proceeded to stand on the weighing scale. The weight was 41.8kg. My immediate reaction was "CB! WHY SO LIGHT?!?" And then guess what he did??????

He giggled.

My heart just broke into a million pieces. My ego was in a state of.....lets just say it looks like an army of elephants just trampled over it. Haha.

Ok long story, MUST LOSE WEIGHT. MUST MUST MUST MUST. IS JUST MUST!!!!!!

" You'll see, Jane," he promised her.
" You'll forget me, and it won't hurt tomorrow. Besides, you said it yourself: Love means you can never be apart, Jane, because I love you so much. I'll always, always love you."

-Sundays at Tiffany's

ANGSTY.

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Okay I'm done. Just feeling damn gek now. Gek to the point i think i can strangle 2 horses to death at the same time. While trampling an elephant to death. ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

When I imagine us together

Sometimes it takes a leap of faith to make things happen, and sometimes, courage.

When i made that decision, i did not have faith in what was built between us, neither am i brave enough to believe that it will last. I used to, though. Sometimes i do wonder, if this decision was regrettably the dumbest one I've ever made. Not having the faith to see the whole thing through. Denying either of us a chance. People quarrel, people make up. And perhaps the reason i gave, wasn't very much comprehensible to you either, hence leading to the situation today.

I used to think i am strong, and that i wouldn't be crying over such things for long. Because after all, no one is indispensable, and if we didn't make it through the second try, i guess we just weren't meant. But many a times when i picture past scenarios, memories, and moments with you, i just can't help but bawl my eyes out.
You played a very important role in my life, and i relied a lot on you to get through many rough moments. When you were gone, the void was very much...intolerable, to say the least. It was tough getting by rough moments, to desperately want to break down in your arms, to want to seek your advice, to yearn for your comfort. Hah, it's still pretty tough getting by those moments now.

But that aside, i have to face reality still no? Seeing the situation now, it's pretty much impossible for things to go back to the past. We're now mere strangers. No, make that strangers who know each other's names. It's so awkward, it takes a courage of a lion to maintain eye contact for more than 3 seconds. Everything was impeccable before. Until....stuffs happened. Stuffs that broke us down, or at least just me. Things were happening at such a rapid pace, i couldn't keep up with you at all. You changed, i changed. We both fell for the one we met in secondary school, like how i mistook you for someone else and did ushering duty together with you in secondary 2. Or how i used to make you piggy back me (of cuz, that was 10kg ago, hahaha). Or how we used to play soccer with a crushed can under the void decks. Or wander off separately in the park, seeing if we could find each other based on gut feeling. Those were few of the many cherished moments we had, and I'm thankful for that.

I guess till now its very awkward and some sort embarrassing to look at you, just because the guilt in me is eating me up. Cause i felt as though I've let the both of us down by making that decision. Not that i regret it though, not entirely, but at times i do. I hope that from this short span of 2 years, I've made you a better person, just like how you've made me a better person. I still carry those flaws you pointed out to me, like being very sensitive, but I've become less loud and obnoxious too, and more truthful to myself. We were close to perfection, but i guess we weren't lucky enough to make it last. At least luck wasn't by my side. I hope you'll find a much better one in the future, and be happy with whatever decision you may make. I'll be getting on my way too. I just hope that occasionally you'll think of me, and whenever those moments may be, i hope that it'll be good thoughts. ;)

Lots of love,
Me.

Meishan says (8:38 PM):
and im a total failure
† Josephian † says (8:40 PM):
have i ever told you
you have the lovleist eyes on this side of the universe

Cue the awws please.
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~

A little something just set me thinking, thinking if i'm ready annot. But i realise, i am not. Because i'm also unsure of what i'm thinking of, so its hard to make a decision and stick to it.

You know the feeling whereby you just say, "go with the flow", but then actually you want things to happen a certain way instead? But then again there's this inexplanable fear in your heart, sort of intimidating i guess, that makes you feel unsure about this decision. And so you retreat, sweeping that decision deep down into your heart, stepping back till you're against the wall, and you just.....give up.

So confusing huh? Yeah man. Sucks big time. :(

H-h-hush

Jo says (11:49 PM):
hahas.....u mean travisss more handsome than him?
OMG!
u dam jialat..just hold guitar only..
then own the all the males in the world!

Hehe ya lor i'm that superficial one ma. If you just look average but you play in a rock band + play the guitar, your handsome level will just auto multiply by like 100000000000.

Or more.

Haha ok looking at the food just makes me damn damn hungry man. Went to tiong bahru complex after our twinkle camp interview and had brunch together with the lovelies!! We ordered friggin' alot la! I was like, i want this! and that! and that! So, we ended up ordering chee cheong fan, chwe kueh, carrot cake, chicken porridge, chicken rice, and 2 bowls of prawn noodles.

Having petite friends = eating with petite stomachs. So i cleared most of the food and stuffed myself to death. But wha the prawn noodles is like seriously super nice \m/ Wouldn't mind eating 10 bowls. Cause got the fried pork lard which i lurrrveee. Screw calories. Hehe :D

Ok gonna end this abruptly cause i don't know what to say.

Oh oh ohhhh and today is my lucky day!! Was going back home and it was raining damn heavily and the queue for the bus is like damn long but but i met ting yu and he got umbrella so end up he send me home as usual. Wow at my long sentence. Lucky right!!!! :D

Tell me you want me to stay

Travis <3333

Bel msged me in the morning to remind me not to spend too much in malacca. Pres msged me at night to ask bout my op and malacca trip. Seriously, where to get such good buddies??

Life has been pretty much....asleep. Literally. Have been livin' like a pig and i like it! Wake up, eat, rot in front of television or computer, sleep. This whole cycle has been entrenched for far too long i'm afraid i cannot break out of it. School's starting tomorrow. Filled with dread. Nothing schoolish is on my mind now. Ask me to draw a lipid molecule also cannot make it kind.

All is on my mind now is....when my online purchases is going to arrive, ger's theme party, malacca trip and..............when will i get my body clock back in shape and eventually PACK MY FRIGGIN ROOM. I am so full of procrastination huh? Yeap, i am. :(

Cole cole cole Mohr

Look at what bel just showed me. The conversation with pres. Gay as hell man.

Preston ・ﾑ???? ・c RawrRAWR says:
hi baby

Ayebel. says:
wtf you wantz

Preston ・ﾑ???? ・c RawrRAWR says:
your embrace

Ayebel. says:
fuck off

Haha fuck man they are sooo ridiculous. I wonder just how many times they have had this conversation man.

Lovely buddies i have!

Best guys to turn to when I need some laughter to be injected into my life. :DDDD
Thanks for not running away when seeing a deranged girl with disheveled hair and tears running down her face when she just needs someone there to listen to her at like 2am. :)

" Hey pretty, mum chased me off the comp, going to turn in soon :) got math tomorrow mornin "

Haopu just sent this. Babe you're the sweetest thing alive, gotta blog bout' you twice in a row. You're not one of the most awesome guy i know. You're like, THE most awesome already!!! Plus you just boosted my ego by saying i'm pretty. I'm a sucker for praises so hehe :)

Promise we'll stay bffs forever alright!!!!! And i'm crossing my fingers for you to have an awesome gf soon ok baby!

Lay your heart next to mine

Meishan says (1:19 AM):
yeah babe it sucks REAL BAD

† Josephian † says (1:20 AM):
OVER A CRIUSH
AHAHAHAHA
actually i would too
T.T

Meishan says (1:20 AM):
eh dont laugh leh
tsk

† Josephian † says (1:21 AM):
i know but
):
you have me
i can let you play tic tac toe on my abs when i get them

Haha babe if you're reading this, you're like one of the greatest guys around that i know of :) You're really awesome at tolerating my crying my bitch fits and my complaining.

Remember the time when i cried under my block and you called me while your mom's angry and played the guitar to try and musk our conversation? Lol @ us.
And the other time when i got scared while walking home alone and you called to make sure i was okay?
And the other time you talked sense into me bout' not getting crushed over a broken heart?
And being there for me when i screwed up big time and still telling me that everything will work out?

Well I remember all those things. :)

Bestest buddy i could ever ask for!!! Don't be so hard on yourself alright? Just remember i'm always a phone call away! <3

ALL TIME LOW

Ernest says (12:33 AM):
whoaaa
if only u got backstage passes
u confirm faint

Meishan says (12:33 AM):
hahahaha i will wait till i hug everyone of them and take a picture before i faint

Fuck yeah all time low!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(500) Days of Summer

This movie was great. Its the kinda movie whereby you don't really get the whole storyline but you enjoyed yourself throughout.

Love the stuff they do when they were together.

Like going to IKEA and pretend that you live there.

Or shouting penis louder and louder at a park.

Or going to say that you're sorry on a rainy night.

Or kiss and making up.

Or getting punched for the one you love.

Or telling everything about yourself to him.

Or lying on the bed together and just enjoying his company.

Or throwing your legs onto his lap while watching a movie together.

"I've never told anyone about this"

"Well, I guess I'm not just anyone"

Cute huh?

I want a relationship like them. :(

Just enlarge and see. She damn guai lan me :(

I think I look like this now.

Cannot stand people who don't pay for their stuffs and then just gey siao go home. Once or twice I can understand. But thrice!? And you bought a friggin' friend to 'forget' together with you???? That just pushes it man. Mannnnn almost 40plus bucks gone thanks to your goldfish memory. :(

Who want to sponsor me 40bucks? Maybe the Arts Development Grant from the National Arts Council? Haha joke only sorry too much project work.

GERALDINE says:
diang bo heng lui?
Meishan says:
HAHA wa eh pw tuition teacher
GERALDINE says:
slap yi eh bin lah
Meishan says:
she just order 2cakes and 1 drink!!!!
at tcc!!!!!
GERALDINE says:
KNN SIBEI GUI LEH
tcc mm si kopitiam leh


Walau she fierce one leh. Don't fierce me leh.
I go malacca don't buy thing back ah.

HAHAHA go one day nia also want to haolian :D

Eh jojo and ger go hongkong buy thing back ah. No need pretty stuff just food can already. Each one in charge of 30 dim sums :))))))))))))