I am a Devil/Angel says (10:33 PM):
hey
i wan ask u sth
I am a Devil/Angel says (10:34 PM):
how u get m.c de

Wha online only ask me this. Like i always go take mc like this leh. No lor. :(

Haha as if only me.

Down with cough + flu. Sneezing the whole day damn ugly one leh. Cried while watching hua mulan. Damn nice can the show. Really damn nice. Then saw this guy accompany the mama/aunt watch the movie. I see already immediately whisper to wendy : "This kind must lock up inside the museum. Cause extinct already this kinda boy. "

Hahaha just laugh at my own comment only.

And i wanted to print something. But then when i reach desktop i just press shut down. Then i scream wtf at myself. Man i've got issues :(

FATTY

I am on a mission. A very important one indeed. The importance level is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo high that the grey mass inside your skull would never be able to comprehend. Succeeding in this mission is equivalent to achieving god-like status, and hence making everything impeccable. Sounds wonderful right??

And that mission is to..............




















Lose weight.

Man am i shallow. Haha.

I like fat leh. I really damn depressed. My brother ask me stand on weighing machine. Then it states 47.8kg or something. Then he say "Ok la your weight. Round up 48 only ma!"
Wha my face just instantly sian half. Then he proceeded to stand on the weighing scale. The weight was 41.8kg. My immediate reaction was "CB! WHY SO LIGHT?!?" And then guess what he did??????

He giggled.

My heart just broke into a million pieces. My ego was in a state of.....lets just say it looks like an army of elephants just trampled over it. Haha.

Ok long story, MUST LOSE WEIGHT. MUST MUST MUST MUST. IS JUST MUST!!!!!!

" You'll see, Jane," he promised her.
" You'll forget me, and it won't hurt tomorrow. Besides, you said it yourself: Love means you can never be apart, Jane, because I love you so much. I'll always, always love you."

-Sundays at Tiffany's

ANGSTY.

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Okay I'm done. Just feeling damn gek now. Gek to the point i think i can strangle 2 horses to death at the same time. While trampling an elephant to death. ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

When I imagine us together

Sometimes it takes a leap of faith to make things happen, and sometimes, courage.

When i made that decision, i did not have faith in what was built between us, neither am i brave enough to believe that it will last. I used to, though. Sometimes i do wonder, if this decision was regrettably the dumbest one I've ever made. Not having the faith to see the whole thing through. Denying either of us a chance. People quarrel, people make up. And perhaps the reason i gave, wasn't very much comprehensible to you either, hence leading to the situation today.

I used to think i am strong, and that i wouldn't be crying over such things for long. Because after all, no one is indispensable, and if we didn't make it through the second try, i guess we just weren't meant. But many a times when i picture past scenarios, memories, and moments with you, i just can't help but bawl my eyes out.
You played a very important role in my life, and i relied a lot on you to get through many rough moments. When you were gone, the void was very much...intolerable, to say the least. It was tough getting by rough moments, to desperately want to break down in your arms, to want to seek your advice, to yearn for your comfort. Hah, it's still pretty tough getting by those moments now.

But that aside, i have to face reality still no? Seeing the situation now, it's pretty much impossible for things to go back to the past. We're now mere strangers. No, make that strangers who know each other's names. It's so awkward, it takes a courage of a lion to maintain eye contact for more than 3 seconds. Everything was impeccable before. Until....stuffs happened. Stuffs that broke us down, or at least just me. Things were happening at such a rapid pace, i couldn't keep up with you at all. You changed, i changed. We both fell for the one we met in secondary school, like how i mistook you for someone else and did ushering duty together with you in secondary 2. Or how i used to make you piggy back me (of cuz, that was 10kg ago, hahaha). Or how we used to play soccer with a crushed can under the void decks. Or wander off separately in the park, seeing if we could find each other based on gut feeling. Those were few of the many cherished moments we had, and I'm thankful for that.

I guess till now its very awkward and some sort embarrassing to look at you, just because the guilt in me is eating me up. Cause i felt as though I've let the both of us down by making that decision. Not that i regret it though, not entirely, but at times i do. I hope that from this short span of 2 years, I've made you a better person, just like how you've made me a better person. I still carry those flaws you pointed out to me, like being very sensitive, but I've become less loud and obnoxious too, and more truthful to myself. We were close to perfection, but i guess we weren't lucky enough to make it last. At least luck wasn't by my side. I hope you'll find a much better one in the future, and be happy with whatever decision you may make. I'll be getting on my way too. I just hope that occasionally you'll think of me, and whenever those moments may be, i hope that it'll be good thoughts. ;)

Lots of love,
Me.

Meishan says (8:38 PM):
and im a total failure
† Josephian † says (8:40 PM):
have i ever told you
you have the lovleist eyes on this side of the universe

Cue the awws please.
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~

A little something just set me thinking, thinking if i'm ready annot. But i realise, i am not. Because i'm also unsure of what i'm thinking of, so its hard to make a decision and stick to it.

You know the feeling whereby you just say, "go with the flow", but then actually you want things to happen a certain way instead? But then again there's this inexplanable fear in your heart, sort of intimidating i guess, that makes you feel unsure about this decision. And so you retreat, sweeping that decision deep down into your heart, stepping back till you're against the wall, and you just.....give up.

So confusing huh? Yeah man. Sucks big time. :(

H-h-hush

Jo says (11:49 PM):
hahas.....u mean travisss more handsome than him?
OMG!
u dam jialat..just hold guitar only..
then own the all the males in the world!

Hehe ya lor i'm that superficial one ma. If you just look average but you play in a rock band + play the guitar, your handsome level will just auto multiply by like 100000000000.

Or more.

Haha ok looking at the food just makes me damn damn hungry man. Went to tiong bahru complex after our twinkle camp interview and had brunch together with the lovelies!! We ordered friggin' alot la! I was like, i want this! and that! and that! So, we ended up ordering chee cheong fan, chwe kueh, carrot cake, chicken porridge, chicken rice, and 2 bowls of prawn noodles.

Having petite friends = eating with petite stomachs. So i cleared most of the food and stuffed myself to death. But wha the prawn noodles is like seriously super nice \m/ Wouldn't mind eating 10 bowls. Cause got the fried pork lard which i lurrrveee. Screw calories. Hehe :D

Ok gonna end this abruptly cause i don't know what to say.

Oh oh ohhhh and today is my lucky day!! Was going back home and it was raining damn heavily and the queue for the bus is like damn long but but i met ting yu and he got umbrella so end up he send me home as usual. Wow at my long sentence. Lucky right!!!! :D

Tell me you want me to stay

Travis <3333

Bel msged me in the morning to remind me not to spend too much in malacca. Pres msged me at night to ask bout my op and malacca trip. Seriously, where to get such good buddies??

Life has been pretty much....asleep. Literally. Have been livin' like a pig and i like it! Wake up, eat, rot in front of television or computer, sleep. This whole cycle has been entrenched for far too long i'm afraid i cannot break out of it. School's starting tomorrow. Filled with dread. Nothing schoolish is on my mind now. Ask me to draw a lipid molecule also cannot make it kind.

All is on my mind now is....when my online purchases is going to arrive, ger's theme party, malacca trip and..............when will i get my body clock back in shape and eventually PACK MY FRIGGIN ROOM. I am so full of procrastination huh? Yeap, i am. :(

Cole cole cole Mohr

Look at what bel just showed me. The conversation with pres. Gay as hell man.

Preston ・ﾑ???? ・c RawrRAWR says:
hi baby

Ayebel. says:
wtf you wantz

Preston ・ﾑ???? ・c RawrRAWR says:
your embrace

Ayebel. says:
fuck off

Haha fuck man they are sooo ridiculous. I wonder just how many times they have had this conversation man.

Lovely buddies i have!

Best guys to turn to when I need some laughter to be injected into my life. :DDDD
Thanks for not running away when seeing a deranged girl with disheveled hair and tears running down her face when she just needs someone there to listen to her at like 2am. :)

" Hey pretty, mum chased me off the comp, going to turn in soon :) got math tomorrow mornin "

Haopu just sent this. Babe you're the sweetest thing alive, gotta blog bout' you twice in a row. You're not one of the most awesome guy i know. You're like, THE most awesome already!!! Plus you just boosted my ego by saying i'm pretty. I'm a sucker for praises so hehe :)

Promise we'll stay bffs forever alright!!!!! And i'm crossing my fingers for you to have an awesome gf soon ok baby!

Lay your heart next to mine

Meishan says (1:19 AM):
yeah babe it sucks REAL BAD

† Josephian † says (1:20 AM):
OVER A CRIUSH
AHAHAHAHA
actually i would too
T.T

Meishan says (1:20 AM):
eh dont laugh leh
tsk

† Josephian † says (1:21 AM):
i know but
):
you have me
i can let you play tic tac toe on my abs when i get them

Haha babe if you're reading this, you're like one of the greatest guys around that i know of :) You're really awesome at tolerating my crying my bitch fits and my complaining.

Remember the time when i cried under my block and you called me while your mom's angry and played the guitar to try and musk our conversation? Lol @ us.
And the other time when i got scared while walking home alone and you called to make sure i was okay?
And the other time you talked sense into me bout' not getting crushed over a broken heart?
And being there for me when i screwed up big time and still telling me that everything will work out?

Well I remember all those things. :)

Bestest buddy i could ever ask for!!! Don't be so hard on yourself alright? Just remember i'm always a phone call away! <3

ALL TIME LOW

Ernest says (12:33 AM):
whoaaa
if only u got backstage passes
u confirm faint

Meishan says (12:33 AM):
hahahaha i will wait till i hug everyone of them and take a picture before i faint

Fuck yeah all time low!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(500) Days of Summer

This movie was great. Its the kinda movie whereby you don't really get the whole storyline but you enjoyed yourself throughout.

Love the stuff they do when they were together.

Like going to IKEA and pretend that you live there.

Or shouting penis louder and louder at a park.

Or going to say that you're sorry on a rainy night.

Or kiss and making up.

Or getting punched for the one you love.

Or telling everything about yourself to him.

Or lying on the bed together and just enjoying his company.

Or throwing your legs onto his lap while watching a movie together.

"I've never told anyone about this"

"Well, I guess I'm not just anyone"

Cute huh?

I want a relationship like them. :(

Just enlarge and see. She damn guai lan me :(

I think I look like this now.

Cannot stand people who don't pay for their stuffs and then just gey siao go home. Once or twice I can understand. But thrice!? And you bought a friggin' friend to 'forget' together with you???? That just pushes it man. Mannnnn almost 40plus bucks gone thanks to your goldfish memory. :(

Who want to sponsor me 40bucks? Maybe the Arts Development Grant from the National Arts Council? Haha joke only sorry too much project work.

GERALDINE says:
diang bo heng lui?
Meishan says:
HAHA wa eh pw tuition teacher
GERALDINE says:
slap yi eh bin lah
Meishan says:
she just order 2cakes and 1 drink!!!!
at tcc!!!!!
GERALDINE says:
KNN SIBEI GUI LEH
tcc mm si kopitiam leh


Walau she fierce one leh. Don't fierce me leh.
I go malacca don't buy thing back ah.

HAHAHA go one day nia also want to haolian :D

Eh jojo and ger go hongkong buy thing back ah. No need pretty stuff just food can already. Each one in charge of 30 dim sums :))))))))))))

Broken hearts and torn up letters

What I drew for her.

What she drew back.

Jojo if you see this, my heart is broken!

Haha I draw such a pretty horse then you just say I am a lion :( Boooooooo!

Hehe okok inside joke only ah I still lub you dip dip! <33333

Supper with Abel and Preston was damn shiok.

I zhnged for damn long thought want to eat zi zhar then in the end bel lazy bum so end up ta pao from coffee shop :(

I think we bought enough food for a mini party.

Horfuns x2, hong kong mee, some other noodle, mango chicken, oyster omelette, satays and pao.

Bel got this super gangster hair cut. I don't really like.

And he ate all the fried chicken skin left inside the box!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wha its damn oily and he just ate the whole damn thing. See already also disgusting. Fatty.

Heart to heart talks till 5am. Fell sleep at least twice. Bel woke me up many times. Babbled nonsense in my sleep. Something like what there were 3 queues and 2 were the real ones and there was a queue for people who cut queue? I can't really remember.

Will be missing quality time with them once school starts :(

Daily dose of Cole

I still can't figure you out till now.

Frustrating one leh.

Broken hearts and torn up letters

Sometimes the littlest things can make your heart skip a thousand times faster, and yet its always the littlest things that don't last long. Or at least, it doesn't last long enough for you to believe that it is actually happening. I don't really like it. No wait, I dread the emptiness that punches me right in my stomach. Right after I've had my adrenaline rush over something, only to realise that it lasted for a mere pathetic 3 seconds or so. Okay but at least I've had my share of a lil' something something. Goes a long way huh. We'll see~

Meeting lang lui for breakfast tomorrow. Heart talkzzzz I love. <3!


Sometimes I wish, that you can read my mind.

Girlf just wna collate all my fugly pics tgt :(

Haven't been doing much lately. PW's a bitch. The epitome of bitch. I wanna meet up with my girls. But like just cannot co-ordinate the timing leh. How?

Talked to jo bout alot of things. Like stuff that happened in the past. Conclude that we are just...haha I also donno what we are. Luck's definitely not by our side. Aiya nvm nvm. I also don't know what I'm talking bout. Let's all try to be erudite and treat each other with respect shall we? Yes we shall. :)