I really hate times like this. When a thousand thoughts are running through my head about all the possible choices i could have make and the possible outcomes that might have resulted. Like what if i wasnt so stubborn, what if i would have given it more thought, what if i didnt went out, what if and what if. It should be easier for me no? No. It just isnt. Why isnt it easier? I dont know. I used to think that as long as the feeling is there everything can be overcomed, but then you proved me wrong. I wanted you back as a friend but i guess it was too awkward also. I tried to talk, not that i didnt. But things just turn out.. cold. I tried but just cannot. Maybe some things are just not meant to be after its gone. Like even try to contact also will weird. But then agn there are people in your life that played a very impt role and to just let it go is just difficult but then to not let go is also cannot kind. I guess you are that person. To try to talk now is just.. pointless. Yeah pointless i guess. You look like you've moved on and maybe i shouldnt spend so much time brooding over the past either. The feelings arent there anymore and all thats left are memories and the everpresent absence and emptiness that i have to sooner or later deal with. Right right? Yeah meishan right. Cmon. Can one is just can one. Dont think alr.
take what you need and be on your way and stop crying your heart out.
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