DOWN

This is going to be a down one. 

I've been putting a little bit of space between someone and I, which I think can be considered an improvement. I would usually make some kind of a big proclamation whenever things reach a plateau, like "I think I'm over it, you know?", or "Yeah I'm definitely not turning back.". Which usually leads to me jumping right back into old habits because it feels familiar. It's funny how differently familiarity works for relationships compared to other things. We hesitate less when switching one out, feel a tinge of nostalgia every now and then, and be content with items of memorabilia if we really need it. But for the other, nostalgia seems to be laced with regret, thoughts of what ifs, and perhaps even a sliver of your own hidden dream, one where things would unfold...differently. Not necessarily for better or for worse, but just different. Something more definite and concise, something with less ifs. 

But when passion runs dry, familiarity is all that is left behind. And how long will familiarity last before you hit exhaustion?

It's always difficult leaving something familiar behind, especially when there is no definite reason or motivation behind it aside from "I'm tired". That reason always seems to fall short. Yet, it was exact the lack of definition that willed you into believing that leap of faith, the leap that started it all.

I've been drained for quite a while now, and we all have to move on eventually, right?

Cause all of the stars, have faded away,

Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday.

Just take what you need, and be on your way,

And stop crying your heart out.