Flutterfly

This movie will mindfuck you like crazy. Seriously. No other politically correct or socially acceptable word can describe it so aptly.

Makes you wonder if there are alternate universes and if whatever you do has a similar, but different butterfly effect? What if the way you live your life now isn't the most perfect for the people around you? What if you weren't even suppose to intrude their lifes so rudely in the first place? What if this is the best you can get but still you are miserable bout it? Mad depressing after watching this movie. Esp 8 in the morning while nursing an aching-all-night tummy.

Ahhh well, nth like a thriller movie to start the day. It was either some lame chinese show or this. Figures.

Saddest lines i've ever came across:
Evan: "I just thought you should know.."
Kayleigh: "Know what?"
Evan: "That you were happy once, with me."

I have this knack for forgetting bout really hurtful stuff easily. The pain's still fresh, but the memories are more or less..faded. Like when i try to recall, nothing real, solid, comes into my mind. I can vaguely recall how it all happened, random stuff i ate/saw that day, but when it comes to the main picture of what actually was going on, i cannot remember. I cannot picture how things went and stuff, just the stranded feeling of loneliness after that.

On that day.. I remember mac's/studying/airport/zi char/desserts/crying/boys over flowers/more crying/devil wears prada/wedding/potato fritters from ikea/bracelets/more crying.
Sorry that it mostly consists of food, i mean i tend to remember them better than anything else. Haha, but yeah, none bout the actual experience. Except for that one incident i shan't mention here. THAT in particular, haunts me up till now. Cause it almost felt so surreal when it happened. Like, it wasn't meant to be that way and i'm trying to rewind the moment but it wouldn't budge and so i just let it be kinda way. Anyone get what i'm trying to say?? I guess not.

Everything happens for a reason and i guess if your life sucked less in one way or another, another's life is bound to suck more. Like, there is a certain amount of suckiness that is suppose to circulate around the world so that... so that someone who started this thing gets a kick out of it. You selfish brat.