Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Lady standing around looking for an extra chair cause she's with a group of 5 and there is a maximum of 4 chairs at the tables.
Me, being extra nice (and not wanting to look like a total hoarder of chairs since i only bought one cup of ice cappuccino): "Err excuse me? *flashes big smile* you can have my chair"
Lady: "Actually its not your chair, it's the shop's chair."

Wtf?

I just stun. Don't even know to smile politely back at her and pretend that i didn't catch what she said or...stand up and throw the chair into her face and scream "Ya and now it's your fucking chair, happy??!!!???!!!??"

Why people nowadays like this one ah. I just don't get it.

When queuing up to order also leh. I know that the queue is awkwardly positioned but sadly I am not the designer who designed the space to be like this, okay??? If I was the designer there wouldn't even be a queue. Everything will be automated such that you just have to order your food on a screen and the food will be served to you immediately. Yes, I'll make it that easy to accommodate lazy assholes like you. Alas, but I am not. So, sorry while you have to stand for another 30 seconds or so before the person can take your order. Which I'm sure it's all it takes to break your tender ligaments and brittle bones. Sob. Sob.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH multitude of ugly behaviour being blatantly shoved into my face when all I did was study econs. Maybe...this is a sign, to ask me to halt mugging for an extremely confusing and mind fucking subject. Hehehe yeah right you wish ah meishan, you wish.

Self made cha soba was yummyyyyyyyy~ Wasabi spam and I end up feeling like a dragon after every bite. Like having to release that tension from I donno where aiya ok you get what i mean right it's the feeling after eating wasabi. But, shiokness max!!!!

I talk to myself alot...esp when watching tv shows. Haha. I am my own commentator and audience to the comments i make. And i use like a pseudo american (sometimes british) accent to make my comments just to sound intelligent to myself. HAHAHA does that even make sense? The whole loneliness thing is starting to get to me :O I need excitement forcefully injected into my blood stream now lah if this goes on I can star in the walking dead as a zombie extra alr :(

x. This space is filled with rants and rants and never ending rantsssssssssssssssssssssssss

Friday, November 12, 2010

How i'm feeling nowdays.

Not wanting to interact.

Absolutely disregarding things and people alike hehe.

Extremely frustrated.

HAHA this is so pointless lah i donno wtf i'm doing. But, look!!!!! my baby so cute laaaaaaaa~ More cute than...whatever he's just super adorable dork and lovable!~ :D :D

I realised i made like 1 careless mistake for maths p2 today fuck T-test and Z-test.
Technology has a negative impact on the skills of people.
Avoid eye contact avoid eye contact pretend you never see the person and then....."meishan ah!" Sian max.
Sitting at the bus stop peacefully enjoying the relief of not needing to do maths for the rest of my fucking life~talking bout happy stuff~ and suddenly...."excuse me can you all move i want to sit i'm sure there's space" whaaaaaa fucking no manners ok!!!!!! cb!!!!!!!! I just stun.
Finally had chicken chop after craving for it for........a very long time. Just never open leh always.
Mosquito bites at random places. Hungry insects.
Why no more bones and how i met your mother and ghost whisperer.
Haiz exams just not over saturated max.
Pointless post ttm.

Friday, November 5, 2010

今天下午和爸爸谈天时,忽然提到二姑。心里。。。很痛。二姑,美姗很想你。你不要丢下我一个人,可以吗?我真得很想你。。。 对不起二姑,我不是个乖孙。对不起二姑。。。

Wednesday, November 3, 2010


I spent the whole day talking to myself while doing chem. At the airport. Alone.

Fml :(

Monday, November 1, 2010

Jacket. Specs. Books. Coffee. Ipod. More coffee.

11 till 9.

Mug. Mug somemore.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

My contempt on life is not helping either. Everything just seems so "aiya fuck it la whats the big deal" to me now. I don't really take anything seriously now actually. Nothing's too significant to be regarded as serious anyway. Everything seems to be coated with a thick layer of disregard cynicism sarcasm and utter disgust.

I need some optimism, hope and a teeny bit of cheerfulness to scrape this junk off me.

But then again..........I'd probably punch whoever's trying to cheer me up given my current *exasperate sigh* dire situation. Fuck this shit.