1) How many tubs of strawberry ice cream will it take to make me feel less....like shit?
2) How many drama series will it take to make me feel less....like shit?
3) How many encouraging messages from my close friends will it take to make me feel less....like shit?
4) How many less insensitive comments do I have to deal with to make me feel less....like shit?
Okay. Digression till I find the answers.
Supper yesterday night was...just like old times. Like when we were young and carefree and mostly honest and happy. Pres ate like a friggin' prisoner of war. He ordered like 2 fucking burgers and huge fries and gigantic cup of drink. Talked bout everything and anything but avoided the dreaded topic. Guess that kinda helped in making me...results postmortem.
Had a totally stupid moment while talking to pres.
Pres: My friends got married when they were like..20/21.
Me: Wha, means they...means they bullet ah?
Pres: Bullet? Huh ya they shotgun lor.
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTF I SAID BULLET
Still sounds hilarious when I'm typing it now. Haha, bullet. Hey, at least there's relevance hor!
Reached home at 3am and continued watching gxj till bout 4ish till I fell asleep amongst heaps of pillows and blankets and in front of the a playing laptop.
I am not sad bout my results. Honestly. But I'm not exactly feeling fantastic bout it wither so I can really do without the constant probing of "how much did you get? what are your plans next?" and insensitive comments all day long. I know how much effort I put in and how much better I could've done if I changed this and switched that around. But what I really don't need is insensitive comments from people trying to rub it in and take pity on me. Really. Or people who just wanna rub their awesome spankin' grades in my face cause they don't have anyone to..show off too. PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM ME. PLEASE.
An example would be...
I mean..seriously? Seriously?? Haizzzz. Really leh. I mean yeah you apologise and all but...whats done is done so apologising isn't really gonna make a difference but there's nothing you can do or I can do so we can only apologise to each other and...move on.
Haiya maybe I'm just being angsty so...................................hope things get better.
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